Friday, August 29, 2008
sad reminising... @ 9:00 PM
today went back to NLPS.
was released at about 10am? met jess at about 10 plus ba.
went with them to LJS but i didnt eat.
didnt felt like it.. and sry i pangseh-ed the 1e6 ppl.
then..went back..
was expecting everything to be fine but it was not.
first person to see at NLPS was you.
it felt really awkward. wasnt used to it.
and i could feel and see tat he was avoiding me.
think he tot tat i wanted to patch???
its not like tat..i alr know its impossible juz need to giv me somemore time..
but i will make it..i know i can..
then was like playing at the void decks..
i could only maintain my happiness for awhile before i finally could no longer take it..
i emo-ed..then was happy then emo-ed.
it really looked as if i was crazy with lots of personalities.
sch finally opened..everyone rushed inside.
went to see mr chang and mr long..too bad couldnt see mrs vina lim.
then after we saw all the teachers..
went out..actually is the person ask us go out de la.
then we went separate ways.
i went to yishun park with nicole. wanted to get some food for myself but since he was there..
i didnt wan to strain the relationship between us.
so i chose to forgo my food.
i didnt wan to take the bus back..i was afraid tat he wld take the bus too..
so i took taxi instead.
so qiao..he also juz came out of the coffee shop and walked out..
i really didnt like the feeling.
i turned my back..didnt wanna see him at all..
since he always like tat..like to avoid probs.
wth? but i still think its my prob tat it became like this..
like i said..i will try my best.
for now..i juz wanna do everything tat i can do it help this..
why do i always emo..
i don know if its cos of this prob..
but i juz know one thing..
we'll nv be friends or even know each other alr..
Description: I am who i am. I don't see a need for me to act like somebody else to be happy, and i love what you hate about yourself.